emo-ing

i have been emo for like about 2 weeks? i guess. because of the new semester! :(

how should i stop it? i wanna play, like, go clubbing? or anywhere else that can make me relax. grrr....

i'm a person who can be emo suddenly. especially when i'm feel down.

first of all, i have to say sorry to quan. because everytime when i'm emo or sad,

i treat him very bad and even don't talk to him although he keep persuading me not to.

i felt so sorry about that. :( but i just feel like don't wanna talk to him i don't know why. when the time i try to talk to him about my feeling, i will feel like crying. *i'm so useless. :( what's going on?

OMG. what's wrong with me??

anyway, he's really a good bf. *for me :)

because when the time i'm sad, he will say or do anything to make me not to feel that way. i'm so lucky to have him. ;) i love you dar!

sigh. just be a student to study, so what?? but i see it as very stressful and colourless. why? i'm afraid that i cant stand it. seriously, i'm just cant stand with stress!

i wanted to tell quan about how i feel but i know i'll be scolded by him because as what he said: 'what so hard? everyone have to study also what, why you think that it is so hard? you think only you have to stand for all these things?" i know this is the truth. :(

he said 'dont think life is hard, relax and let things flow'. :) i will do my best.

i must do my best and the most important thing is to enjoy my life and love all my family and of course *you*. :)

till here. * cheer up chee!

with love, chee