Bye, November 2010

here come the last month of 2010. feel so sad don't know why. maybe because time past so fast? yea I think so.

Never had this type of feeling last time. I wonder why.

Finally November ended. November was a bad month for me. I suffered for assignments, suffered for something. everything, tired.

BYE, NOVEMBER 2010.

I think it's time for me to buck up for everything in my life.

I want my life to be wonderful all the time, but not mess up because of some stupid stuff.

I hope everything will be better from now on.

I love my family, friends and of course I love him so much. I hope he does too. :)

we are not the same persons this year as last; nor are those we love. It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person. :)

Christmas is coming soon, remember last year Christmas, baby and I had a great Christmas celebration and we exchanged presents too. ;)) I hope this year Christmas will be better than the last year. :)

one year is over, but the things like just happened yesterday. I can't believe that time really past so fast like we never stop and really enjoy the every single moment.

so, we must appreciate every moment we have with our loves one. :))

I saw a quote yesterday in my college, it's so meaningful.

"worry doesn't make things better"

it's true, no matter how worry your are, things doesn't get better. we should take action and do it. plan the work, work the plan. so don't worry, keep on going. everyday is a happy day. :)

LIFE GOES ON! ;)

Where is holiday

Holidays, where are you? I want you so badly. :((

I want holidayssss!! too stress, too tired!!

yea I got holidays but not going to be a holiday for me to relax, but is to do assignments. pissed off! why can't the university set the due date earlier. ishhh! Christmas and new year are dropped between the holidays!! should be an enjoyable holiday larrr! :(

however, I won't let the stupid assignments spoil my plan! ;DD if there is any plan, still go on. hahaha!

just wanna do a little update. ;) bye!

p/s: don't know why miss home so much suddenly. :'(

and the stupid pipe is spoilt, I can't bath!!! hope the owner will come to fix later. D;

chee

Updated

HELLO! :D just recovered from fever. :) don't know why suddenly got fever. luckily, not that serious. should take good care of myself. :)

thanks dear for caring me so much when I was sick. :)))

I overslept this morning! OMG, i thought I'll be late for the class, but when I'm rushing to shower and whatever, then suddenly receive a message ' Mr. XXX MC today, class is cancelled.'

I was like, what? should have overslept for one more hour before I see the message. =P

btw, finally one of my assignments is due next week! one down, but will be struggling for the next 3. :(

I know it's kinda long period for me to finish my assignments. but just keep slacking and slacking, then do last minute work. regret! :( so sad about it, angry at myself, why am I so lazy. arghhh!

However, I won't let assignments to kill me, I'll kill them. =P

Remember? First class honors. :D hehe

while doing assignments, I wanna enjoy my life too. I'm doing it! *enjoy till I rush for assignments, can see how really I'm enjoying. haha

I wanna shopping!! crazy for shopping recently, I got a whole list of things to buy. =.= hmm, should buy wisely. =P don't waste money. maybe wait for my mum to come and shop with her, shop for chinese new year? ;))

see, year 2010 is going to end real soon. sigh. so fast. like i did nothing for the whole year. -.-

anyway, new year with new hopes. :))) hope everything gonna be fine and better in the coming year. :)

till here today. gonna take a nap.

Bye. Have a nice day. ;)

chee

late night

it's 1.40 am now. I'm still awake. What happen to me? I wanna do my assignments, but end up with did nothing. pissed off!! I hate it, why am I so lazy. please, give me strength to do it. :((

And I emo for don't know what's the reason. I hate this! what the hell am I thinking? my mind just can't clear and start doing my assignments.

Assignments, assignments, you're so annoying!!

One week is gonna end soon, another week gone. why the happy time always past so fast, I hope the time could stop and let me enjoy it slowly. :(

I'm so scared, I scare that one day you will lie to me again. I don't want the same thing to happen again. really, I hope it won't! never! I can't take it anymore if it happen again. I know I can't.

when I see you, I feel so happy, but when I don't, I don't feel safe at all.

I hope someday you will realize what I've done for you.

sorry for the stupid emo post again.

It's raining now, should be a goodnight's sleep. :) goodnight.

ILY. :))

chee

feel fresh!

hello! :D

I cut my hair last week! shorter about 6 to 7 inches. it's been don't know how many years I never had my hair length like this. >.<

honestly, I didn't plan to cut it. but last thursday, I feel so stress and I was so sad for don't know the reason, then I decided to go and have hair cut. you know what, I feel so fresh after cut my hair!! feel like I throw away all my sadness and stress!

I'm doing good now, I hope it will continue improving! :))

how good is it if there is no lies or betray in this world.

I just got my assignments done just now, waiting for the plagiarism result, damn worry man :(

I hope everything is fine. :))

just a short post for today, been lack of sleep for these few weeks. :( skin condition become more worst, sad :'( I must get my good skin back!

done! :D

Goodnight!

chee

I choose to trust you doesn't mean you can lie to me.

TRUST

How to trust a person who lied you before?

I'm scared. :(

I just need to feel safe.

Don't lie to me please.

I wanted to trust you, but make sure you're not lying.

不让我的眼泪陪我过夜

你的柔情似水

几度让我爱得沉醉
毫无保留 不知道後悔
你能不能体会真情可贵
没有馀力伤悲
爱情像难收的覆水
长长来路 走的太憔悴
你只留下我收拾这一切
不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的吻留著馀味
忘了曾经爱过谁
慢慢习惯了寂寞相随
不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的脸梦里相对
爱的潮水已经退
我的真情不再随便给
没有馀力伤悲
爱情像难收的覆水
长长来路 走的太憔悴
你只留下我收拾这一切
不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的吻留著馀味
忘了曾经爱过谁
慢慢习惯了寂寞相随
不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的脸梦里相对
爱的潮水已经退
我的真情不再随便给
不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的吻留著馀味
忘了曾经爱过谁
慢慢习惯了寂寞相随
不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的脸梦里相对
爱的潮水已经退
我的真情不再随便给

Just alone.

I miss those days when I used to be with you.

I miss the time when we go and catch a movie, holding hand, and go anywhere with each other.

I miss everything and every moment I had with you. But now, all not belong to me anymore.

How I wish I can cry on your shoulder when I'm sad, but the shoulder no longer there anymore.

I cried, but I was crying alone. And when you smile but I know it's not for me, and that is what I miss the most.

Everytime when I see your face, I got a lot of feeling. I feel like wanna slap you, but I feel like hugging you like how I used to too. I hate you, and then I love you, feel like want to throw you down to the cliff and then rush to the bottom to catch you.

I remember you said, I'm number one in your heart, but how come??

I wish I can be strong. But I can't, I'm still weak. I just can't take it.

Sometime you treat me like I'm still your girlfriend, but you still.. why are you making yourself so suffer and me too? I wish you will wake up, I know you are still a good boy like how you used to be. It's time for you to fall down, and get up by yourself.

And please, when you're wrong, accept it, don't make it like the whole are blaming you and you do not know what's wrong. And stop to be a liar. love not only consist of 'I love you' but 'I trust you' too. if you want people to trust you, you must make sure you're not lying.

I'm sad, I can't eat, can't sleep well. I know it's kinda stupid but I love you. that's the reason.

Tears

All the thing I have now is tear. I'm so helpless. :'( but what can I do?? anybody can tell me what can I do? GOD, if u know what I'm thinking. Please give me what I want. I have no strength to go through all this. :( I'm not as strong as I thought I was. I'm not.

My heart is pain. I had all the nightmare. Don't come in my dream, come to me in real life can? It's making me suffer, suffer!!! Everyone tells me you don't deserve me, but they are right, you don't deserve me, but I deserve you. I'm totally hurt. I think I'm gonna have the same nightmare until the time heals me.

How i wish someday you will come back to me and tell me you're regret with what you did. but I don't know when will it be. :( I want to wait you but how if you never come back? What did she do to you? and what happen to the one I loved for 5 years? I wonder so much. But I can't get to know even one of it! from now on, you're not a part of my life anymore, it's so hard for me.

Say Hi to November

OH GOD, CAN'T BELIEVE THAT IT'S NOVEMBER NOW!!!

How come the time is like flying?? 2010 almost come to the end. why so fast? :(

I'm like slacking throughout the 2010, like did nothing. dammit. >.<

But I can't be slacking anymore, I have tonnes of assignments!! Hope I can score for my coursework, helpppp. I really hope so, moving forward to my target!!

But why I'm blogging now? I should be doing my assignments right? stupid! I really don't have the mood yet, so just do something that can make me relax and wait the mood to come to me. =P *will be soon. D;

It's Deepavali tomorrow. :D wish all my Indian friends have an enjoyable day and Happy Deepavali! :D

And also wish people have a happy holiday! ;))

Done. ;P have a good day guys!

p/s: eldest sister is coming back tomorrow! :D

love, chee

Stress.

Feel like crying now. :( I need a shoulder now. :(((

I don't want assignments, I don't want study! :(