不让我的眼泪陪我过夜

你的柔情似水

几度让我爱得沉醉
毫无保留 不知道後悔
你能不能体会真情可贵
没有馀力伤悲
爱情像难收的覆水
长长来路 走的太憔悴
你只留下我收拾这一切
不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的吻留著馀味
忘了曾经爱过谁
慢慢习惯了寂寞相随
不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的脸梦里相对
爱的潮水已经退
我的真情不再随便给
没有馀力伤悲
爱情像难收的覆水
长长来路 走的太憔悴
你只留下我收拾这一切
不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的吻留著馀味
忘了曾经爱过谁
慢慢习惯了寂寞相随
不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的脸梦里相对
爱的潮水已经退
我的真情不再随便给
不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的吻留著馀味
忘了曾经爱过谁
慢慢习惯了寂寞相随
不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的脸梦里相对
爱的潮水已经退
我的真情不再随便给

Just alone.

I miss those days when I used to be with you.

I miss the time when we go and catch a movie, holding hand, and go anywhere with each other.

I miss everything and every moment I had with you. But now, all not belong to me anymore.

How I wish I can cry on your shoulder when I'm sad, but the shoulder no longer there anymore.

I cried, but I was crying alone. And when you smile but I know it's not for me, and that is what I miss the most.

Everytime when I see your face, I got a lot of feeling. I feel like wanna slap you, but I feel like hugging you like how I used to too. I hate you, and then I love you, feel like want to throw you down to the cliff and then rush to the bottom to catch you.

I remember you said, I'm number one in your heart, but how come??

I wish I can be strong. But I can't, I'm still weak. I just can't take it.

Sometime you treat me like I'm still your girlfriend, but you still.. why are you making yourself so suffer and me too? I wish you will wake up, I know you are still a good boy like how you used to be. It's time for you to fall down, and get up by yourself.

And please, when you're wrong, accept it, don't make it like the whole are blaming you and you do not know what's wrong. And stop to be a liar. love not only consist of 'I love you' but 'I trust you' too. if you want people to trust you, you must make sure you're not lying.

I'm sad, I can't eat, can't sleep well. I know it's kinda stupid but I love you. that's the reason.

Tears

All the thing I have now is tear. I'm so helpless. :'( but what can I do?? anybody can tell me what can I do? GOD, if u know what I'm thinking. Please give me what I want. I have no strength to go through all this. :( I'm not as strong as I thought I was. I'm not.

My heart is pain. I had all the nightmare. Don't come in my dream, come to me in real life can? It's making me suffer, suffer!!! Everyone tells me you don't deserve me, but they are right, you don't deserve me, but I deserve you. I'm totally hurt. I think I'm gonna have the same nightmare until the time heals me.

How i wish someday you will come back to me and tell me you're regret with what you did. but I don't know when will it be. :( I want to wait you but how if you never come back? What did she do to you? and what happen to the one I loved for 5 years? I wonder so much. But I can't get to know even one of it! from now on, you're not a part of my life anymore, it's so hard for me.

Say Hi to November

OH GOD, CAN'T BELIEVE THAT IT'S NOVEMBER NOW!!!

How come the time is like flying?? 2010 almost come to the end. why so fast? :(

I'm like slacking throughout the 2010, like did nothing. dammit. >.<

But I can't be slacking anymore, I have tonnes of assignments!! Hope I can score for my coursework, helpppp. I really hope so, moving forward to my target!!

But why I'm blogging now? I should be doing my assignments right? stupid! I really don't have the mood yet, so just do something that can make me relax and wait the mood to come to me. =P *will be soon. D;

It's Deepavali tomorrow. :D wish all my Indian friends have an enjoyable day and Happy Deepavali! :D

And also wish people have a happy holiday! ;))

Done. ;P have a good day guys!

p/s: eldest sister is coming back tomorrow! :D

love, chee

Stress.

Feel like crying now. :( I need a shoulder now. :(((

I don't want assignments, I don't want study! :(

Genting trip with UNMC gang ;)

Last Thursday, went Genting with the boyfriend's UNMC friends. You guys are really nice, funny and awesome! ;D Nice to meet all of you.

And I had great time with my baby! I love you! ;DD

We reached there at about 4pm then we took the check in number, guess what? We waited like about 2 hours to check in! Phew! I don't know why is it that crowd even is in weekdays.

During the 2 hours time, baby and I went to starbucks to have a drink and surf internet while waiting for his friends to come. Luckily they came in awhile. :) Then we chilling in starbucks.

Finally we checked in at about 7.30pm.

After we put put stuff in the hotel room, we went for our buffet dinner at 'Coffee Terrace' (if not mistaken) :) There are variety of food there, and all of them are quite nice. I was so full until feel like vomit. =.= but luckily not. hehe

After the dinner, we went for a walk then back to the hotel. We had a 'drinking session' in the hotel room as they brought some alcohol there. ;) Around 11pm, we headed back to our room because we were going to theme park the next day.

Let the pictures tell the story, kinda lazy to type it out. ;P

=P

playing ipad.

checking in.

delicious buffet! :D

group photo. :)

the other love bird

Rai & I ;D

Baby and me. ;)

2 couples. ;P

The guys. ;)

;))

going to 'shot'. LOL

that's all. ;) have a nice day !

love, chee

Live like we're dying, never regret.

YES, I'm dying. Assignmentssss are killing me. Tonnes of assignments! I feel like puking every time when doing assignments. I need some help and rest, seriously! NOT IN THE MOOD!

The other way of saying 'live like we're dying' -

It's true to say live like we're dying. We must appreciate every thing and moment we have. But i realize a lot of people won't, when they have something, they want more and better one. I think I'm one of them too. But I happy with what I have now, *in the process of learning to be happy with what I got. :)) So, I'm happy now. Only the assignments make me unhappy. :(

we should not regret on any decisions that you have made because that's your choice or we can say, that's already meant to be. We should follow what is meant to be or find out our own way, that's your decision too. Once you have decided your choice, there's is no going back.

People always regret on why not to choose the other choice after you made the choice. I think it's time for me to learn not to regret.

I always regret on what I have chose like food, clothes, books or whatever except my boy. I hate to make decision when buying things or whatever. I must learn to choose wisely and not regret with my choice. I will and I must!

We can't do any prediction in our life. We couldn't know what will happen in the next moment. But we can have targets or life goal that we can do our best to achieve. This is not prediction as we must go through step by step to reach the goal.

Here's my target - First class honor!

I'm serious! last time I never think about it, but now, only the target can push me. and I want to make my family proud of me! I hope I won't let you all down. :))

But now, before the first class honor, have to settle my assignments first. -.- otherwise, zero class honor then! LOL

知足常乐!

Love, chee